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Who Are You?: currently 27, creative, struggling, odd, difficult, looking for my peeps
Where Are You?: cavernous apartment in Williamsburg, Brooklyn with uneven floors, exposed pipes, hissing radiator, etc (it's snowing outside!) What Are You?: atypical consortium of antagonism, curiosity, cynicism, great sentimentality, concerns, promising but abused talents, various ideological hustles and bullshit, bookish leanings (unfortunately), self-destructive tendencies, distrust, and strange mishaps What do you make?: unkempt working conditions, quiet observations, bad decisions, mix tapes for everyone, impossible "to do" lists, internal dialogues, theoretical art projects, inefficient uses of time, interesting problems, and (generally speaking) one strange bedfellow What do you love?: complexity, hopeless crushes, critical thinking, unpolished expression, subtle flourishes, sparseness, distortion of most kinds, things going wrong in funny and exciting ways, late-night talks, speculation, "the great matter", social responsibility, diy mindsets and stripped-down fucked-uppedness, balinese music, construction sites, absorbtion in the present moment, Cometbus What do you hate?: misrepresentation for personal gain, celebrity culture, arrogance, condescencion, pandering, the promotion of personal financial wealth as a synonym for freedom, blandly literal treatments or translations, presumption, oversleeping, complacency, overconsumption, the banality of pop culture, my own laziness and inefficiency What do you listen to?: gamelan gong, Coltrane (almost too sacred to mention by name), the Make-Up, Halo Benders, Nation of Ulysses, the Clash, Crass, the Slits, the Paragons, Bikini Kill, the peechees, dub, Sonic Youth, Sleater-Kinney, the Specials, GBV, the Orb, angular atonal arrythmias, etc What do you watch?: people always, mistakes coming my way, my girlfriend sleeping with our cat (Calvin) curled around her, my own embarrassing moments (helplessly, over and over again) What do you drink?: water, mostly What do you smoke?: weed very rarely and only socially What do you take?: great and unnecessary pains to conceal amazing things from strangers, too much time to think, chemical substances very rarely and only socially What do you believe in?: collectivism, community, dissonance, logically unresolvable contradictions, redemption When We Were 16 Where were you?: private school in Albuquerque, New Mexico, living in various homes with assorted combinations of parents and step-parentsWhat were you?: painfully shy, somewhat traumatized, obsessive, beginning to be seriously disfunctional What did you wear?: uniform for the cultural ghetto that is the upper-middle class, what everyone else was wearing, etc What did you listen to?: hip hop, almost exclusively What did you watch?: parents fighting, distance forming, the impending freeze-up coming, etc What did you love?: unattainably cool girls, Public Enemy, drawing, reading, isolation, concealment What did you hate?: parents fighting, distance forming, the impending freeze-up coming, etc What did you drink?: water, mostly What did you smoke?: smoking sucks What did you take?: abuse, without much complaint, as often as it was dished out to me, until I learned to dish it out myself and think that it was good for me What did you want to be?: dead at 30 Who did you fight?: concerned friends, concerned teachers, myself, my family Who/What did you believe in?: can't recall that I believed in much at all Where did you go?: from bad to worse over the next ten years What did you learn?: that I truly am my own worst enemy, that there are indeed things to live for, and that love really is possible |
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